14 months has passed

[Denisemac96]

It seems so hard to believe. I was thinking about this day today, remembering how much the 11th of every month always brought me so much pain. I remembering people telling me those "month-a-veraries" would get easier and the pain on these days would not seem so raw. I must say, I didn't really believe them before, but I do now.
Today I was thinking about how Elli has been gone for 14 months, and that is longer than we got to have her here. I have been struggling with dealing with the birth of this baby, and I guess this day did not bring up the usual memories and thoughts that it usually does.
That's a good thing, right ?

I know I don't feel like it is a betrayal to her or that I am not honoring her memoryby not spending the entire day in mourning, and that is progress for me. I also know that with this baby comes a whole lot of emotions that I have been trying to prepare for as best I can.

I guess I just wanted to take some time out for Elli today, to write a little about her and commemorate her today.
Thanks for listening, as always.

[Honey Bee]

((hugs)) Elli must be very excited at the prospect of a baby brother to watch over. I don't really know what else to say, but you're in my thoughts.

Liss

[Margaret]

I remember hating the 25th of every month!! Especially when Christmas came. But you're right that everything fades with time and I only occassionally think about those anniversaries.

I'm glad that things are starting to settle before the new bundle arrives!!!

Good luck tomorrow!!

Margaret

[Hop Devil]

It is amazing how much progress we all have made, if you want to call it that. The 22nd and 25th of every month are not devastating to me anymore. Today was my due date for Luke last year. This time last year I was anxious to get him out of me because I wanted to meet him. If only I knew then what I know now. **sigh** I know that Friday will be a day full of emotion for you, both joyous and bittersweet. Just know that a little bit of Elli resides in all of our hearts and she will be smiling down on you and your precious son.

[Anxious]

God bless you.

[PeggyG]

I still feel varying emotions on the 19th and the 22nd of each month.....and over time it has gotten easier. I just wanted to let you know Iwas thinking of you.


{{{Hugs}}}

[PaulaSue]

Thinking of you (((HUGS)))

[Angellochie]

Just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this - today (the 13th) is 14 months since we lost Lochie as well. Hope all goes well for your CS today and we will hear all about your bundle of joy soon.
xoxoxox

[frankiecali]

Just FYI...I will never forget about Eli no matter how cute new baby boy is :p

You know Eli means so much to me...Simone better share nice with her in God's playground....

Your healing gives us all hope..

and were is my phone call already!???

[Jo]

(((((hugs)))))